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Understanding Political  Identity instead of Identity Politics

2/27/2017

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 The All African People’s Revolutionary Party’s (A-APRP) 2017 African Liberation Day theme focuses around youth organizing and fighting back against settler colonialism “from Africa, to Standing Rock (U.S.), to Palestine.”  When we say settler colonialism, we are talking about a system where the elite European invader classes forcibly take over the land and resources of another people so that they can extract, control, and exploit those people.  In other words, the European settler classes came to Africa, the Americas, and Palestine.  They developed relationships with the elite classes of people Indigenous to those places, and they proceeded to enact systems of oppression and exploitation that subjugated the populations in those countries while enriching Europe, the U.S. Canada, Israel, and Australia, as the industrialized capitalist countries who still dominate much in the world today.
Every settler colony, whether it’s Azania, South Africa, Zimbabwe, Kenya, Ghana, other areas of Africa, Palestine, or the Americas,  is ruled through an organized system of violence and intimidation.  In Azania, South Africa, this system included the pass laws where every African had to hold a special identification book that confined them to specific areas.  To be found anywhere without that pass book, or within an area not authorized by the pass book, meant immediate imprisonment and worse.  The same conditions exist for the Palestinian people today where Palestinians born and raised in areas historically defined as Palestine are not permitted free movement through those territories by the Israeli government.  And, the Indigenous people of the Western Hemisphere have been subjected to countless systems of control and oppression such as the Bracero Program and the boarding schools.  Although this violence and control is a central element to maintaining power within these colonized areas, probably the most important tool used by the colonizers is ideological control through theories rooted in white supremacy.  An example of this method is the education system most, if not all, of us have experienced.  Despite the fact we have all experienced school in various ways throughout the world, if each of us was called upon to express what we learned about Africa and African people, the Palestinian people, and the Indigenous people of the Western Hemisphere, all of us, whether in North, Central, or South America, Africa, the Caribbean, Europe, Australia, or anywhere else, would all have to say in unison that our knowledge was limited and what we received was drenched in racism and misinformation.  The reason for this is white supremacy, the primary appendage of capitalism, had to be created as a universal theory to justify the exploitation taking place within the settler colonies.  Consequently, if oppressed people within those settler colonies are going to develop a healthy perspective of themselves so that they can galvanize to be free of oppression, they must deconstruct the ideology of white supremacy and construct an ideology of liberation and human progress.  By deconstruct, we mean confronting and dismantling backward concepts like the people of Africa are incapable of governing themselves and replacing that dysfunction with a clear statement about how African people have successfully governed themselves thousands of years before the Europeans set foot in Africa.  This is important because once Africans can believe we can fulfill our own needs, then we can begin to seriously organize to do so, but the as long as we believe we need Europeans in order to survive, we can never take the independent steps towards our liberation.   This process of decolonialization is what is meant by the term political identity.  For example, Africans are oppressed because we lack power.  We lack power because colonialism has stolen our land and separated us from Africa physically and psychologically.  Our enemies have taken control over Africa’s vast mineral resources.  And, they control the African masses by controlling all the wealth at their disposal making our existence one of constantly seeking resources from the European capitalist system when the resources they control actually belonged to us in the first place.  Using Africans within the U.S. as an example, the way white supremacist ideology manifests itself within this process is these Africans are taught that we are fortunate that Europeans permit us to live in the “great” U.S. (thus the refrain; “if you don’t like it, go back to Africa!”)  Never is it acknowledged that the so-called “greatness” e.g. the massive wealth within the U.S., has been created by this system of colonialism and settler colonialism that is stealing Africa’s wealth and funneling that wealth into the capitalist countries.  If Africans were able to recognize this process and how it impacts us, we would be up in arms fighting, demanding, that Africa be free so that we could benefit from the riches our homeland has to offer.  Since our enemies have created this white supremacist system which has convinced us that we are not Africans, but African-Americans, we have been taught to see the U.S. as primary.  Thus, many of us see the U.S. as our only option.  This approach teaches us to ignore Africa (and/or look at Africa through the same white supremacist lenses that most Europeans view it) while we fight for inclusion into the U.S.  That’s why the A-APRP calls our people African uncompromisingly.  We don’t exchange African with Black or any other identity label because we understand that until we see ourselves as Africans, we cannot embrace the concept that our future is tied to the future of Africa.  So, by calling us Africans, it is a form of political struggle against the forces of oppression.  It’s a way for us to declare our political loyalty to Africa as a method of liberating our minds so that we can pave the way to liberate our people and our homeland.  This is the process of us claiming our political identity as African people.  This act automatically links us with African people in Canada, Mexico, Honduras, Guatemala, Brazil, Cuba, Jamaica, Puerto Rico, the Dominican Republic, England, France, Australia, India, and all of Africa.  By calling ourselves African, it asserts that we recognize that we are the same people and that we will define our reality, not our enemies.  When we say the only thing that separates us is a boat stop we are crushing the narrative of colonialism and refusing to submit to it.  We are defining our political identity.  This is a healthy and liberating practice that we must endure.  And while we do, we cannot get confused into letting anyone confuse this necessary process with identity politics.
Identity politics is a concept that is quite different from political identity.  Identity politics seeks to define the world based on how we interpret our identity instead of what our identity actually is.  As a result, identity politics tells us that based on subjective definitions, we get to define what is good and what is bad.  Those subjective definitions are “I’m Black so although I haven’t read one book on African people, I can define what being Black is based simply on how I feel about it.”  There is no reliance on history or science.  Just our subjective feelings.  For example, within the construct of identity politics, persons will assert that only they as African people can define what is racism or that all Europeans are subject to anything anyone African says about racism because our identity as African people gives us the definitive rights to determine everything related to being African based not on our analysis, but our interpretation of our identity.  Of course, there are many African people who know absolutely nothing about white supremacy.  In fact, there are Africans who will deny its existence!  So, any definitions cannot be based on subjective and unscientific premises, but must be based on political analysis.  In other words, being African based on political identity claims a political connection to Africa that presupposes a commitment to see Africa free as a prerequisite to all African people being free.  The same can be said about the political identity of the Indigenous people of the Western Hemisphere as it relates to the Americas, and the Palestinian people as it relates to occupied Palestine. 
Students of history must learn to make this clear distinction between political identity, which is a methodology to break the chains of colonialism, and identity politics, which is a method that relies on bourgeois liberalism (creating false premises to deny dealing with the truth) to cloak the real contradictions of white supremacy within capitalist societies.  Those real contradictions are that the capitalist system is built on settler colonialism as a means of financing itself and when the survivors of settler colonialism free their lands and their people, they are weakening the capitalist system so that it makes it possible for the masses of humanity to march towards justice and freedom.
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They Killed Malcolm X 52 Years Ago Today.  What We Should Learn

2/21/2017

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"I just knew they had shot my husband!"  Those were the ominous words of the late Dr. Betty Shabazz - the widow of El Hajj Malik  El Shabazz (Malcolm X) - just moments after he was viciously assassinated in front of his entire family on February 21st, 1965.  Fifty-two years later, the conditions Malcolm X spoke so eloquently about still exist and in many ways have been intensified.  Its essential that we recognize the reasons the state thought it necessary to silence Malcolm's prophetic voice.

Most students of history know about Malcolm's transformation from street hoodlum into dedicated soldier within the Nation of Islam.  Malcolm's efforts to strengthen the Nation are also known and his impact on that organization remains significant enough so that the Nation still struggles around addressing their relationship to him.  His travels to the Middle East have been repeatedly referenced in documentaries, Spike Lee's 1992 motion picture, and even Malcolm's own autobiography as depicted by Alex Haley, but very little, almost nothing, has been said about Malcolm's work in Africa and throughout the African world.  And, even less has been said about Malcolm's clear push to become a force within the Pan-African world.

One only needs to start with Malcolm's own words in his autobiography when he says that "the highest honor of my life was an audience with Kwame Nkrumah in Ghana."  Malcolm went to Ghana in 1964 in response to Nkrumah's call for Africans everywhere to go there and help build Ghana as a method of strengthening the entire African continent.  He was not alone in answering Nkrumah's call.  Louie Armstrong, the Trinidadian Pan-African George Padmore, W.E.B. DuBois and Shirley Graham DuBois, Muhammad Ali, and Maya Angelou, are just a few of the people who wanted to support Nkrumah's call.  And Malcolm arrived there essentially a private citizen.  And what's never discussed is how this private citizen, from the U.S., who was a former convict, was able to gain an audience with the president of Ghana.  What did they discuss in their multiple meetings?  Neither Malcolm or Nkrumah divulged any details, but some things we can ascertain.  Nkrumah, having experienced the debacle of attempting to defend his student Patrice Lumumba and the National Congolese Movement in the Congo, as well as fending of the eventual overthrow of his own government, was learning how sophisticated imperialism is.  He knew he had to organize an organic, revolutionary, Pan-African force to have any chance of challenging imperialism's hold on Africa.  And, he wanted Malcolm to play a direct role in this work.  There are several substantiated reports that Nkrumah told Malcolm that Ghanaian intelligence forces had advised him that they had uncovered communications that led them to believe U.S. intelligence forces were plotting to assassinate Malcolm.  There is also collaboration that Nkrumah relayed this information to Malcolm.  Nkrumah himself suggests  in his personal letters (Kwame Nkrumah - "The Conakry Years") that he told Malcolm of his fate as a way of attempting to entice him to stay on in Ghana.  Malcolm's response to Nkrumah is not clear, but what we do know is that Malcolm was indeed assassinated and Nkrumah's prophetic vision of it confirms that clearly, that assassination was not directed by the Nation of Islam as imperialism would have us believe.  Or, as a wise elder once said "they may have fired the guns, but they didn't buy the bullets!"

Malcolm was primed to serve as a key organizer and activist for a developing worldwide Pan-African movement.  And his position as a chief and credible critic of U.S. imperialism made him an essential character in this growing work.  There is even evidence that Malcolm's 1960 meeting with Fidel Castro in Harlem established a relationship that was maintained between Malcolm and all of the anti-imperialist world.  Malcolm also visited with Guinea President Sekou Ture and although Malcolm wrote about how impressed he was with Ture, and how Ture told him that our people's fight for dignity was the central focus that our fight should entail, there are key questions that logic should dictate that we ask.  Malcolm never spoke in public about what he discussed with Nkrumah.  He never spoke about what the relationship was between his meetings with Nkrumah and his meetings with Ture.  He never spoke of any follow up from his 1960 meeting with Castro, but one thing is clear.  Malcolm named the organization he started after leaving the Nation of Islam the Organization of Afro-American Unity (OAAU).  This was a clear tribute to Nkrumah who one year before had started the Organization of African Unity (OAU - now the African Union).  Malcolm spoke in general terms about the OAAU being the  U.S. branch to the OAU.  And, there has always been chatter about Malcolm receiving funding from Nkrumah, Ture, etc., to travel and blast imperialism since they, as heads of state over tenuous governments, didn't have the same leverage to carry that out.  Since none of this was ever confirmed by Malcolm, we are left with speculation.  The other challenge is Malcolm and Nkrumah, etc., were still in a stage of development with each of their political understanding of the forces at work.  Consequently, we know that imperialism destroyed any potential of the OAU (the AU) and the OAAU for that matter, but the efforts Malcolm was making, in clear cooperation and encouragement from Nkrumah in our estimation, were sincere and represent the work we continue to carry out today.

What we can say confidently is that Nkrumah and Ture were without question political comrades of the closest nature.  As a result, it is difficult for me to see any political scenario where Malcolm, who had a relationship with Nkrumah, could develop a similar relationship wtih Ture without it being a coordinated effort.  In other words, those relationships were coordinated and they were done in an effort to build this Pan-African network.  Of course, Malcolm was assassinated and was therefore never able to fulfill his potential to this work.  The young Stokely Carmichael - later to become Kwame Ture - did arrive in Guinea-Conakry four years after Malcolm arrived in Africa.  And, we believe Kwame Ture fulfilled the work Nkrumah initially wanted Malcolm to fulfill and Nkrumah himself essentially verifies this in his personal letters.  The work Kwame did, that Malcolm was starting to do, is the same Pan-African work we continue to do throughout the African world today.


What's odd is all of these revitalized efforts to commemorate Malcolm go to great lengths to avoid any mention of this work.  There is no mention of Nkrumah, Ture, Castro, or anything even remotely connected to this work in Spike Lee's movie, any of the documentaries about Malcolm, and virtually nothing in any of the books.  Manning Marable's 2011 study on Malcolm, which was filled with contradictions, barely scratches the surface of these relationships because Marable was more interested in pursuing gossip and accusations about Malcom's personal sex life, preferences, and alleged affairs with a White woman in Egypt.  Not to mention alleged affairs Dr.Mrs. Shabazz was supposed to be having.  Sex sells, but revolutionary struggle educates.

So, we know that the best way to honor anyone is to continue their work. As a result, in order to live by their values, we encourage you to use this 52nd commemoration of Malcolm's assassination to focus in on Malcolm's legacy as a revolutionary organizer.  A developing Pan-African organizer and the importance of continuing that essential work.  And also, since Malcolm was much of what he was because of his decision to discipline and focus his life, I encourage everyone to engage how you can become better organized?  Better able to confront problems withiin yourself and/or with others and to develop the skills to help you learn how to resolve those issues.  If you are serious and just need help, check out my button on Personal Advising if you are interested in trying to strengthen your abilities in order to reach your full potential as an oranizer and as a person. 

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Valentines Day and the State's Assault against Any Real Intimacy

2/14/2017

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It was during a conversation with comrades in Tanzania in December that one of them said something that perked my interest.  They mentioned that Western holidays, like Valentines Day, are now regularly consumed by people in Tanzania and throughout Africa.  Of course, we all know that the capitalist system's advocacy of every holiday it promotes is motivated by a profit motive.  So the fact they have discovered that there are further markets to exploit in Africa isn't any big surprise.  What it did make me think of was how much dysfunction we suffer from as a result of the onslaught of money grubbing propaganda.  Think about it.  Here is a day where you are supposed to have someone you are romantically involved with.  Someone you should demonstrate your commitment to through spending money - whether you can afford to or not is immaterial - to cement your relationship to this person.  And, it doesn't matter one bit whether you and your person have an understanding as it relates to not spending money on this day, the pressure from the capitalist system is so intense, if you cannot afford to buy something, you still feel inadequate.  This is true because everything within capitalism is based upon personal competition.  Upon devaluing us as individuals in order to reduce us down to consumer commodities.  As a result, you can have that principled understanding with your partner, but then all the people next to them at work got something today.  Or, even if only one person got something, it was something.  And even if you don't see what that person next to your person got.  Even if you wouldn't even know what that person who got something looked like if they walked up to you and slugged you in the jaw.  Even if none of your partner's co-workers actually got anything  Even if you don't even have anyone to buy something for, you still feel that little pang.  That little jab that's telling you that you couldn't deliver.  Another shot at diminishing your self being courtesy of the capitalist system which depends upon that little taste of insecurity to drive its profits every day.  

And, all of that trauma only scratches the service.  There are millions of people who struggle on days like today because there is such a systemic apparatus working within the capitalist system that has successfully trained us that we are not worthy as human beings.  That something is inherently wrong with us.  That something is always wrong with us and it will always be wrong with us.  Consequently, the reason why we haven't been able to find that special person, and keep them, is because of these undeniable and non-negotiable flaws.  And this negative propaganda infects pretty much all of us.  No matter what.  You can be a genius.  You can look like a movie star.  You still are held hostage to that voice inside of you telling you that you are a failure.  And that voice has a strong life expectancy and its always working.  All the time.  I know because like most of you, I've battled that voice my entire life.  Young women made fun of me when I was in high school.  I mean, openly laughing in my face when I asked them out.  And, laughing not just when I asked, but weeks afterward, whenever they saw me.  They used to mobilize on the steps at my high school to laugh at me as I walked by.  Looking back, I can't even blame them.  I was skinny as a rail with huge, thick eye glasses, terrible skin, especially my facial area, and a head full of nappy hair long before anyone was celebrating it, at least where I could hear them.

There was much more than just the physical stuff.  A reoccurring message that I had no value.  That message was orchestrated and articulated with such consistency by everyone from my parents to my teachers, etc., that I had to believe it was true.  And, I've spent my entire life fighting against that dysfunction.  I've done enough work around it that I now know why my parents said and did what they did.  And I don't blame them at all.  In fact, I miss them terribly.  So, a day like today has never been a friend to me.  It wasn't a friend when I had someone in my life, and it isn't a friend now.  

Finally, there's all the bourgeois confusion that interferes with us learning how to be comfortable with ourselves. Confident in ourselves, so that we can overcome all of the previously mentioned trauma.  By bourgeois confusion I mean the way we are trained to search for companionship.  The process where we attempt to hide our insecurities and uncertainty about ourselves (remember, we are taught to believe something is inherently wrong with us) by carefully and consistently building a wall up around us that prevents you from seeing the real us.  The afraid us.  The part of us that is totally buying the facade you have perfected in front of us that makes us believe you are perfect so therefore there is really no way you would ever want to have anything to do with someone as flawed as me.  We spend so much time in our lives developing these fake acting skills that most of us never learn how to become comfortable with the flawed selves that we are and as a result, we never find that person who is ready to face reality with us, thus creating a genuine intimacy and partnership that ironically, we spend our entire lives desperately looking for, and most often never finding.  All of this is bourgeois because the definition of bourgeois class values are believing in class interests that are based in idealism (the facade) that go firmly against what's best for us.  

Valentines Day is problematic not because there is anything wrong with people expressing their love towards one another.  The problem is the platform from which this is messaged is one from which perfection is assumed.  And since our lives are anything except perfection, the fact many of us don't have that perfect mate - we have a highly imperfect situation, maybe even a dysfunctional one, or no situation at all - reinforces that loneliness for us on a day like today.

I'm going to fight my battle against all of that dysfunction and I encourage you to do the same.  Its ok to maintain your fantasy person that will one day sweep you off your feet.  I want to be able to do that.  My person often comes in many different physical forms, but she's always ready to bring the values into my life that I've long wanted.  A genuine interest in me as a human being.  An interest in me.  Something that I feel has escaped me my entire life.  My person won't see me as a puzzle piece e.g. the person with the looks, build, maybe even some personality traits, that they admire, without taking in and valuing the person I am in its entirety.  And, I fully realize that I've missed a lot of great values in people over the years because of my dysfunctional issues as well.  Well, that battle I'm waging today is centered around committing to continue working on myself to push myself outside of whatever I think is comfortable for me.  Pushing me to question everything I'm doing, which I've actually gotten quite good at, and demanding more of myself.  Like I have made a commitment to think through everything I say I want in someone with a counter of what I will offer them.  And, I want to hold myself accountable to doing that.  Also, since I know I can't battle this on an individual level, I pledge to myself to try and bring these issues into my patriarchy groups with other men folks.  To continue to write about it as I'm doing now and to use all of that to continue to push myself and everyone around me.  The pushing piece is essential because this is such a backward society, anytime we are defending questionable values, its a pretty strong bet we are perpetuating the values of the enemies of humanity.  So, push, push, push, yourselves beyond what you think you believe in.  I'm certainly doing my best to do that to myself.  I question even my core beliefs daily.  The one's that are questionable, I have no issues with confronting them and working to change.  The one's I'm strong in I hold that way because I've thought of the counter arguments against them, and worked through them, before you even articulated your thoughts against the concepts to me.  

By seeing Valentines Day as a day of reflection, it helps a lot.  I still feel the loneliness many of you feel, but it does help.  I don't know if I'll ever get to that fantasy place with that fantasy person, but the point is the more work I do, hopefully that will matter less and less.  Hopefully, I'll get to a place where I appreciate the people I do have, more and more.  And less and less of how I define myself and the people around me will be dictated by this money first system.  I also encourage all of us to really focus on confronting that negative self talk that is telling all of us that something is wrong with us.  That we are worthless.  None of that is true.  I don't care what you think you have done wrong or what you have actually done wrong.  Its still not true because I know that despite whatever it is, I could not even know you and I could sit down with you and ascertain in a very short period of time the logical reasons why you did whatever you did.  There are reasons and none of them are based in what's wrong with you.  Its based in what's wrong with this backward system.  And, I know we can't change the system, or ourselves, without working to change all of it, us and the system, at the same thing.  So, let's start working on that piece.  That huge piece.  One thing for sure.  The day we start making that type of progress will be a real day worth celebrating and doing some won't cost us any money.




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Ten Years and 17 Days Left in Oregon...Honest Reflections

2/11/2017

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Let me start this honesty by admitting that I originally rolled into Oregon back in February of 2007 without any real knowledge about this place.  That's because a very good woman I wanted to be with was up here.  That's all I needed to know at that time.  That's some honesty for you.  The job I had didn't work out (neither did the relationship, but that woman is still a very dear friend and I'm thankful to still have her in my life).  So, I moved on after a year and a half to take another job in Bend, Oregon.  If you don't know, that's a town of 80,000 people in Central Oregon.  The African population in the entire county where Bend is located is 0.02% African.  That fact alone gave me severe anxiety about moving there.  And, the racist job I was starting was another red flag, but I had a sick mom and a daughter in college so I did what I thought I had to do.  

Two and half years later I left Bend with my tail between my legs.  Unemployed and living on selling all my personal effects which mostly consisted of guns, books, and sound equipment.  Living in that town had taken an awful lot out of me.  Its racist as hell there while everyone was telling me its all in my mind.  That was always so frustrating since I know I can detect racism with the finest and most exact precision.

In late 2010, early 2011, I returned to the Portland area without a decent job and although I didn't realize it then, it was going to be like that for a while. I had always had recession proof job skills, but my luck had apparently run out.  In fact, I spent from the beginning of 2011 until mid 2012 bouncing from hustle to hustle, barely making enough money to put gasoline in my vehicle.  Things got so bad that I spent about 10 months during that time sleeping in my truck.  Thank god for the 24 hour coffee shop on Powell.  I'd park on that street and often stay right there, all night.  During that time, my largest fears were my truck breaking down and my not having enough money in my account to pay my monthly gym dues since that place was providing my daily showers.  Those were lonely days, but I'll never forget that coffee shop and the gym on McGloughlin.  That was my community during that time.

In late 2011, the Occupy movement happened and since I didn't know many people in Portland, and I knew I had strong organizing skills, I decided, against that voice in my head, to venture down there and get involved.  I ended up writing the code of conduct for Occupy Portland.  Physically chasing some abusive men out of Portland, and making many friendships that I plan to have for the rest of my life.  From Occupy I was informed about a group of African people in N.E. Portland who were forming to fight illegal foreclosures.  With my finance background and organizing experience, I was the first one at the new group meeting held in the former Reflections Bookstore/coffee shop.  By the conclusion of that meeting, I was the chair of that group and that led to me helping guide the Black Working Group as it was called into several successful home defense actions that led to my opportunity to get the job I've had for the last five years.  There's a video that captures all of the intensity of that work on youtube called "We are Unevictable."  

From that housing justice work I met enough people to create enough of an organizing foundation for myself in Portland that I felt confident enough that I could successfully move to doing the work that I've done all of my adult life...Organizing for revolutionary Pan-Africanism inside of the All African People's Revolutionary Party (A_APRP).  It was April of 2013 and I can't even remember how I got the room at Portland State University, but I organized a seminar on Pan-Africanism that night that I worked hard to put together and get the word out.  I did all of that without any help.  Actually, at that time, when I talked about wanting to organize the A-APRP here, most of the time what I got was deer in the headlights from people.  The event that night was very well attended.  About 50 people.  I did the standard thing.  I took names and I followed up with people, abiding by the holy axiom of the A-APRP; "its not the event, its the work that comes after the event."  There was an orientation and the first work study circle for the A-APRP in Oregon since the early 70s was birthed.  I'm keeping it honest here so I'm not going to say anything except the truth when I say that circle was a collection of dysfunction and immaturity.  Still, I did what we do in the A-APRP, we try our best to work with what we have to work with because we are only concerned about one thing.  Building capacity to organize our people for liberation and elitism can never be an ingredient in that formula.  We had a revolving door of that dysfunction for about a year or so with some very serious accompanying problems, but with a strong focus, we continued and eventually, we started to get people who were at least willing to engage the A-APRP's stated objectives.  With quite a bit of pushing and follow up, there was a meeting in December of 2014 in N.E. Portland where the plan for work in New Columbia was laid out in front of an all African crowd of about 75 people.  From that process evolved the breakfast program in  New Columbia, a twice a week effort to use pancakes as a strategy to talk to our youth, and their parents, about Pan-Africanism.  There were still a lot of internal issues that we struggled to work through, but the program developed and the A-APRP in Oregon began to build some real credibility.  Today, that effort has evolved into the School of African Roots and the A-APRP has produced some very quality institutions here in Oregon with the annual Fourth of the Lie and Pan-African Women's Day programs along with the Pan African Film political education series.  

Some reflections on all that work includes an assessment that there's something in Oregon that really breeds a strong fragility and a complete unwillingness on the part of far too many people to face the simple reality of a very bad word in Oregon - accountability.  A lot of people see the work for justice through the lenses of their personal trauma and if you are going to seriously organize here, you are forced to engage that sad reality and try your best to struggle through it without being pulled down in the carnage.  People have allergies here to addressing contradictions head on and the way people use the internet is a postage paid package for police sabotage and infiltration.  And, I think the biggest problem is people here love to talk about revolution, but the minute there is difficulty they disappear.  Revolution is always about dialectical struggle and if you understand anything about dialectics, its that everything has opposite forces of nature that are struggling against one another for dominance.  So, if you understand these scientific principles, than you have to accept that if you are not willing to struggle through problems than do us all a favor and leave this work alone.  We will move forward with or without you.  Just stop talking and talking about revolution when you know that you have no intention of engaging any struggle that falls even a hair outside of your personal comfort zone.  In other words, there is a lot of wasted time and energy here and that isn't going to change until people get mature enough to seek out emotional support if you need it so that we can stop using our justice organizations as vehicles for us to try and work out our personal dysfunctions.

On the positive tip, as I leave this place, my overall memories will be overwhelmingly positive.  That's true even of Bend.  The truth is had I not lived